Thanks sunrise.
I had individual therapy tonight. I didn't find it quite as easy to talk (I think I said everything last night!), but it was comforting all the same. I cheer up in spite of myself after therapy.

I think I'll call T this week and tell him I felt better -- you know, now that I've gone in and talked about how miserable I am -- at least if I can hang onto it. He had several good points and analogies for me tonight that I need to write down.
I especially liked when I said I was angry with myself for having made the same mistakes over and over and not having learned from them. He said that repeatedly hitting your thumb with a hammer does not teach you better hammer-swinging techniques. I liked that analogy.
Feeling better....
Sidony