No feelings numb dumb tired can't understand the way anything works, I can watch the bare wall in front of me all day,the rest of thed ay mey eyes are closed in darkness I don't watch tv or listen to music idon't smile most of the time I have a angry look on my face my dog got more baths than me last week Life hate me I hate life no interest in woman, fishing ,hunting , working out, I wake up stumble around for hours be fore i feel i could maybe drive but I'm to tired now I lay down think bad thoughts, my eyes hurt my head hurts my shoulder hurts I have vertigo herpes out breaks all the time now on my forehead I have no income so that depressed me a little more no one wants me to work for them I feel like my body is always fighting something off I don't sleep well, my butt ig leaking poo i can barely pee I shake I twitch my active memory fails me, Every time I try to help myself someone is always there to stomp me down farther I have menieres disease I can't go outside in the sun it will trigger the menieres I could go but im to depressed.