Artchic, if I recall correctly, you haven't been in that many relationships. I think you may find as you date more and engage in more relationships, that you become more comfortable with initiating touch. I was much the same way. I was brought up in a household where my parents never showed affection physically towards each other or to me and my brothers. It's kind of weird to me as an adult now when my dad wants a hug and a kiss goodbye, because we never did that before, and I feel really awkward doing it.

I had to acknowledge that I didn't know much about physical affection when I started having relationships. It was difficult but I learned to read body language and cues and I also learned just when to speak my mind, like telling a man, I want you to kiss me now. In fact, apparently that's a big turn on. Yay me.

I think if you know it's something you are uncomfortable with, you can find ways to deal with that. The other thing is, maybe you're just not an initiator. Just communicate that and what you want from your partner, and you really should be fine.

Good luck,
Seesaw