maybe you didn't talk to someone first because ....you didn't want to bring them into it? or you felt they might stop you? I know i often have a hard time reaching out because people don't understand why i would cut.
or i don't want them to know that i was out of control... or i mostly don't want them to think that i am doing it for attention. I feel like they'd think "just don't do it- you have that power - what's the big deal?" but it is like ... like i *have* to cut when the urge comes up.
kiya