im 20 and have been severely struggling with "depression" since age 12. There's a lot more than depression goin on here (anxiety, abandonment issues, childhood trauma, add) but its basically a huge **** storm and depression is the tip of the iceberg. I'm kind of at a loss now like after so many years of therapy and medication I just don't know what to do. I dont know what to say in groups or one on one because after spilling your history so many times it just kind of becomes white noise like yea these are my problems and im kind of past the point of needing to talk about them. I also don't know what to say to doctors anymore ive been on 8 different anti depressants which really isnt that many considering how long ive had this problem but the meds just consistently do nothing for me i dont even feel a slight change. So idk where to go from here but im just complete and utterly impaired by this i cant get out of bed much less anything else i wanna get better but after so many years of this crap i guess im gonna have to get accustomed to laying in bed for the rest of my life. deuces