im done. i am so sick and tired of this stupid crap that my mind does to me. im ready for it all to end. im at the edge of the abyss and im gonna jump. i have been trying all night to connect to a stinking crisis chat online because my phone is broken but no ****ing luck. so whats the point in trying. i am just so tired of all this ****. i dont care if i get banned for this post. i really dont. i am sick and tired of my life becoming a mess. i am tired of not being good enough, of not amounting. the only people that i think might get it are gone out of my life so wtf does it matter. its my fault theyre gone anyway.