I have the tendency to feel extremely anxious if and when I notice off behavior from other people, especially when it is just towards me. Anyone else get this feeling? It is like an extremely anxious, scared, sickening feeling in my chest and stomach and I dwell on what I could have done wrong when this happens.

In most cases, this happens when someone clearly just does not want to talk to me all the sudden and in some cases, make it extremely obvious they are avoiding me. It is not as bad when they do it to everyone but when they do it to just me, it gets extremely bad.

Most people are able to just brush it off and act like they don't care or are not that bothered by it but I can't help but feel extremely anxious and worry they hate me and may even gossip about me out of anger just to get rid of me. Does anyone else have this problem?

I will wonder what is wrong, and in the rare cases when I do ask what is wrong, they will usually say nothing and that everything is fine and I am overreacting. In very rare cases, the behavior stops which may indicate they were just in a bad mood and were not being too polite about it but in most cases, the behavior continues.

I will wonder why they are acting this way and wonder why they won't just tell me if something is wrong and what I could have done to make them so angry. I worry that once I make someone angry, that is it. They will never want anything to do with me again.

The reason for this is because I had a couple past experiences where someone was actually mad at me and they denied ever being mad when I asked them. When that happened, I assumed they were being honest, only to find out they were mad or annoyed and didn't want to be around me anymore.

I will worry for as long as the behavior continues. In some cases, if they show signs of avoiding me, I will actually pull away and give them space. Sometimes this actually rectifies the problem by giving them the chance to initiate conversation when they want.

By doing this, I am giving them space and allowing them to initiate any interactions on their own terms and if they just needed a cool down period or space, then they got it. I care about how people think of me and percieve me. I don't want past experiences to repeat.