You're taking klonopin as needed, right? That could be part of your problem as it has depression and suicide ideation as side-effects.

I was put on klonopin several months after being diagnosed with bipolar 2, and my depression became utterly overwhelming. I spent the day on the couch trying to sleep away how miserable I was. I got to where I'd be okay and then waves of despair would engulf me like a storm moving in. This was my life for 13 years until I went off meds, and was amazed at how much better I felt.

A year after I got off meds I decided to go back on klonopin as I have this crazy sleep disorder called sleep starts where I flop and twitch as I'm dosing off. It was so out of control that klonopin was the only thing that stopped it. Within 3 days of going back on klonopin, I was sobbing uncontrollably for no reason, and giving very serious thought to how I could kill myself. Nothing was any more wrong in my life than the previous week other than the introduction of klonopin. Fortunately I remembered my sister had been told by a neurologist that psych meds cause anxiety so I decided to google klonopin and see if suicide ideation was a side-effect. Sure enough, there it was in black and white! I went off it, and within 3 more days, I was fine. Now I'm now saying you're thinking of killing yourself, I'm telling you this to show you how meds can affect your mood.

My sister takes klonopin, and it seems likes when she does, a day later she's depressed. She refuses to believe the klonopin makes her depressed, but I can see it based on my experience.

Look at your meds....