Well said!!! Thank you for such a detailed and awesome comment. It caused me to look at my own therapy. While I'm not going through what the OP is ( and I wish her all the best) I see some similarities in my own therapy. I don't trust easily and for the last (almost) 4 years my therapist has openly encouraged me to become dependent upon her, she once told me that I will need to "fall in love with her" ( not romantically). Now here we are about 4 years later and I have allowed myself to depend upon her and funny enough I have felt her pull back in fairly subtle ways... less email, less warmth at times, just to name a few. I still do not trust her completely and I'm glad for that. Sometimes this process feels like a game of cat and mouse.. and I don't like those kind of games. It's very confusing! Anyways.. thank you for your post!!👍👍