Studying for my Literature exam on Thursday. Going well. For the exam I already have the two essay questions so I can prepare my answers in advance. However, I am only allowed to take in a list of the specific lines I quoted from various journals, books and the end-text reference list of all the sources I quoted from. So basically I have to learn two 1500 word essays off by heart. I have written the essays and am now in the process of memorising them.

Last week I was a bit hypomanic so although I did hours of work on my essays they turned out very disorganised. It was like I was trying to jam in the information of 5 essays into one, while not really making any solid points...or even answering the questions. Thankfully my mind has slowed down and I think my essays answer the questions well, follow each point logically and demonstrate my knowledge of the subject, which is Shakespeare's The Tempest.

Still, I feel mentally shaky, obsessive, intense, erratic and major PTSD stuff coming through. Think I might be holding it all together to get through to my exam so I am a bit worried about how I will be when its all over. Seeing both T and pdoc tomorrow so hopefully they will have some ideas on whats going on and how to keep myself from falling into an episode.

Hope you are all ok. Love you guys!