difficult day yesterday, and very depressing.

I suppose because of the halloween stuff (we didn't do anything for it, but it still affected us), but we heard some fireworks in the evening and it made us lots of dark thoughts.. about family mostly, and about how we're just wasting away.

no sleep

today we're struggling yet again, because it's the first of november and we are dealing with the realisation that almost another year has gone without us really accomplishing much

probably just have our takeout later and watch avatar.

it's 4 days now until the actual firework night

oh joy