I wish there were that sweet spot where I could be stable (and take less meds, I feel like I'm taking too many) and be capable of crying and laughing more. Haven't found it yet. I'm going to talk to my pdoc about discontinuing the Abilify since I'm already taking an AP, even though now it's at a low dose. I want myself back. Maybe not all of me, but most of me. I'm not sure who am I am anymore. I've lost interest in things that I used to be passionate about. It's very demoralizing and make me sad...