Welcome to Psych Central. I am sorry you are struggling so much.

I know first hand how hard it can be to be in school and deal with this crap. I wish I had an easy answer for you.

First, and foremost, getting help is critical. I understand it can be difficult to do. Your school will likely have help you can take advantage of. It is usually in student services or the psych department or both. There should also be a directory of all the student groups, see if something interests you that you can get involved with and meet people.

The Americans with Disabilities Act(ADA) can offer you help as well. If you can get registered in the ADA office, might be called the disabilities support office or something similar, you can get help with extra time on tests and homework, tutoring and mentoring and they will be able to point you exactly where to go for help. It is not just for the physically disabled. It saved me in school more than once.

You should also know that there is no disgrace in stepping back from school and take the time you need to get things under control. I am not telling what to do, but I have a lot of experience being a student and a little as an instructor, I can tell you that people that forge ahead without getting help end up in academic trouble which can be very difficult to dig out of, especially when dealing with mental health or physical issues. When academic troubles hit, that just feeds into MH issues, making things much worse.

I had to take two terms off as an undergrad and I felt like a total loser. In hindsight, it was the best thing I could have done both for me and my academics.

Getting better is the number 1 priority here. Nothing is more important than you and your well-being.