That's okay, Dechan. I just know that your struggles are particularly rough right now.

I have also posted here when I was under the influence of something or other...oh well.

I see a practice for my doctor..as in I don't get a choice. The one doctor who made me cry was the one who said that anxiety comes from (then he motioned to the back of his had...don't remember the area of the brain he said)...and that it wasn't my fault...

Rationally I know that anxiety attacks are not something that IS "my fault"...but it was so priceless that I wasn't just nodded to in reply to my never-ending complaints about them...

So...I am not a doctor. But...it is not your fault that you have anxiety.