So it turns out that my sister is going to be staying with one of her friends for awhile. There she'll have access to moral support and rides to and from pdoc and therapist appointments. I don't know what to do without her... she's my rock. She helps with all my bipolar problems since she knows how I feel. I have no one to tell me what voices and hallucinations are real or not now... I don't know how long she'll be gone. And I have no friends like that to go to. The suicidal thoughts are growing and I don't know what to do. I don't have a plan or anything like that so it's just mild for now.