I love my therapist so much and I wish she was my mum. I've sort of discussed it with her before and I know it's because my real mum didn't meet my needs. Still, I can't help but want more from her than the relationship can give.

I like to think I am special to her too. There are a few reasons I think I might be... if I can't have a session one week she will call or email me to check in, when I couldn't afford to see her she would let me come in for free, she spent a lot of time becoming registered with this organisation to allow me to see her through them and they pay for it (I'm her only client she does this with), she lent me a book, she spent time trying to find a new psychiatrist for me, and sometimes she braids my hair for me (which she doesn't do for any of her other clients), I also once told her that I wished she would adopt me, and she said she would if she could.

I don't know if these are things she would do for anyone or if she really likes me. But I know I can't get anything more off her than this and it makes me so sad. Especially because I know she's going to have kids one day and be such an amazing mum. I feel so sad that I met her in this way because our relationship is so limited. I wish I had met her some other way so that she could have been a friend or mentor to me. I guess this is pretty common? Was just wondering if other people feel the same or have any idea how to deal with it.