Hmmm. I have thought about this. Consider this. These psychos find vulnerable people. So how brilliant can they be when they pick on wounded souls? They are like wolves who watch for the wounded stray sheep at the edge of the herd. I can't address this too much due to triggers. I was stalked. Partly the reason I moved to a new neighborhood, into a building that is like a damn fortress. That's why I moved where I am. But now I feel very confined. It was all to get away from a stupid psycho who knew where I lived. But I am free now. I had the same phone number and he was calling me after I moved but then he stopped...I think because he sensed I had changed and wasn't as vulnerable.

I really am getting stronger. It is just taking time.

Hmmm. I used to think psychos were clever. Maybe they are in that they can spot vulnerable people and take advantage. But that isn't being truly intelligent. It is just the predator radar and instinct. This is another reason I am isolated at this time. I was being stalked and no one believed me and the cops said they really couldn't do anything about it. So finally I decided I had to move. It is all getting better. This has all happened fairly recently. Like the past year.

Darn. Yeah, I was vulnerable after my sister died and became a victim. But I resolved it, and now I am better off and I should realize it and stop feeling so depressed. But those psychos kind of leave a bit of a PTSD vibration. I'll shake it off completely, I am sure. The psychiatrist said he thought I was shaking it off because I didn't have nightmares or flashbacks, which is true. I don't. I feel the victorious woman, really. Beat down a vampire...