Yes, I am thinking of investigating moving into a house with others, or some kind of communal situation when my lease is up. Housemates can be a pain, but I think it may be the lesser of two evils. I truly do feel living alone is torture.

I was totally connected in my community until a major depressive episode hit me after my sister died, then I was victimized by a psychopath which I talk about on another thread. Within a year my life completely fell apart. Even I cannot believe it. I stopped volunteering, I quit two jobs, I cut people off, and I withdrew. This situation is totally strange because the psychiatrist who gave me an assessment a few months ago said he would call me a "social butterfly," based on our session where we talked and laughed a lot. My career involved counseling. My last volunteer job was working with therapy horses which was awesome. It was truly sad that the depression caused me to give up the horses but I couldn't do it. I was too sad.

Stuff happens. I am trying to dig myself out. I do know that living alone is absolutely the worst situation I can imagine and it is a big task for me to resolve this situation in the coming year. It doesn't suit me to live alone. I think it's really unhealthy for anyone, but especially for those with mental health issues. It breeds anxiety.