You know what? It is okay, isn't it? It means so much to talk with people who understand. I think the anxiety I feel is from the stress of living alone. It causes all kinds of insecurities. So yeah. I mean it is a stress. When you say, "I'm trying to live a quality life despite this but I must admit the tide overtakes me sometimes," I totally relate. Absolutely and totally.

Now remember the 89 year old marathoner I talked about? Well, his wife died when he was in his early 80's...and he was traumatized by witnessing his son die in a horrific freak accident. It was horrible. He went to live with another son but he was depressed and traumatized, and as he said, half dead. And you know, he was already an old man so he figured he would just die.

He took up running because he needed distraction, and as he said, when he ran his mind was a blank, and he found relief. His running took him around the world, and he won many records. But that didn't take away his original wounds. He just found his way to cope.

I think this shows that we can still live, even when life wounds us. You are a perfect example. You were embraced by Psych Central after you were having some difficulties. Right? Because everyone recognizes your whole self. Also, you rescue yourself, I see.

Yes, I am a motivator. That is what I did before all the **** hit the fan in my life. I inspired and motivated others. But when I needed help I couldn't find it...and isolating is the worst thing.

That is why I am so happy you came right back on Psych Central. That was brave, and that was true, and everyone recognized that.