It is quite common to feel love for your t and to wish that your relationship was more like a friend or family member. And it is quite common to look for evidence that you are special to your t. And it is quite common to feel hurt/sad that it can't be "more".
Some people will tell you that it is all part of the process and others will tell you to run for the hills. I don't know which is the best advice as I am still in the midst of that kind of relationship with T1. I just wanted to let you know that your experience is common.