Background info: I have always known myself to be a polyamorous person. When I first met my husband, he believed he was too. However, two years ago I had a partner that was abusive and manipulative, and by the time I figured it out and broke it off, it had done lasting damage to my husband and I's relationship. Since then, we have become monogamous because he gets severe jealousy issues. I have bipolar disorder and along with it comes a lot of hyper-sexuality and oxytocin-related urges for cuddling and new partners. The past two years have been a huge struggle. I don't think I'm capable of staying monogamous for another year, let alone a lifetime. But I cannot stand life with my husband when he gets jealous because frankly he goes between acting like an asshole and a kicked puppy. I feel like I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place and it will never get better. I really need some advice here.