I keep swearing that someone's breaking into my house, or is already in it. What's worse; I'm telling myself it's all in my head but I keep hearing noises in my damn house. I check and check and no one's there. I don't have a pet who'd make noise like this. My fiance's grandparents are fast asleep and never come on this side of the house at night, anyway.
I don't know if this is anxiety turning me delusional or the other way around; all originating from the PTSD. I don't feel safe; like something's going to happen again. I hate this so much. It's driving me crazy. I woke up because I felt like I had to protect myself. I'm staying awake all of the time for that reason when my fiance's not home.
Has anyone else with PTSD suffered from these delusions? I'm not sure if I'm hallucinating or having sensory flashbacks. I know I'm getting my phantom pains in the usual locations but the noises I'm hearing don't match up with the actual trauma. I feel like I'm going completely insane, at this point.
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