This is what I'm afraid of happening if I get a prescription for medicinal marijuana.

As for the PTSD and false euphoria. I have a poor relatioship with food. I eat to comfort myself through the pain. I wil also climb back into bed in order to 'hide'. I suppose one could say these are my ways of self-medicating.

Alcohol.If I have access to it, it will be gone. I don't purchase it myself as I simply can't afford it.. But, typically, my boyfriend will buy a case of 15 or more, drink 2 or 3 and leave the remainder behind. That lasts at most two days. And yes, it helps push away the darkness.