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Originally Posted by justafriend306
This is what I'm afraid of happening if I get a prescription for medicinal marijuana.
As for the PTSD and false euphoria. I have a poor relatioship with food. I eat to comfort myself through the pain. I wil also climb back into bed in order to 'hide'. I suppose one could say these are my ways of self-medicating.
Alcohol.If I have access to it, it will be gone. I don't purchase it myself as I simply can't afford it.. But, typically, my boyfriend will buy a case of 15 or more, drink 2 or 3 and leave the remainder behind. That lasts at most two days. And yes, it helps push away the darkness.
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My food issues and I go back and forth. I can tell you that I really don't have a problem with marijuana (I don't know of anyone getting addicted to pot and if so, it doesn't seem to interfere with a lot of people's daily lives). I smoke/consume just enough to help with the chronic pain in my neck, chest and shoulder; but I don't take in enough to get high. I can make three grams last for two weeks. I don't know why, it makes me feel better than the alcohol. Then again, my drinking began at a very young age (single digits) while the first time I regularly started using marijuana was when I was diagnosed with cancer at eighteen.
Honestly, I could be wrong and in denial, but I don't see myself as an alcoholic. I don't need it.
Lately, though. I just can't stand being sober anymore. Could be weed, could be alcohol; at this point it could probably be just about anything (save hard illicit drugs). It's getting really bad now that I'm not sleeping; I don't know if that has anything to do with it.
[As you can tell, I'm one of them legalized weed advocates crawling all over the states, these days.]