Hi Terry! You've come to a good place here at PC.

No, God never tells us to give up, that's how you know it's the depression talking.

Depression tells us lies. Come back and post when you are not medicating with the alcohol, ok? I know what it's like to try all the meds and not have something to work for you.

It doesn't take a lot of money to begin to get well...you already began by posting here. You haven't given up, you're trying another avenue, and there is much support for you.

((((hugs)))

If you truly are feeling there's no hope, please go to the ER and tell them how depressed you are feeling. Please. Depression makes us feel there is no hope, when there really is... really. You don't need to die, you need something to change for the better for you.