Another thing I should have mentioned, but didn't think about it until it happened.

I NEVER allow myself time to enjoy the aftermath of something I've earned. It's like I'm afraid to get stuck. You know the ex football star who returns to highschool to relive his glory days? It's not just sports I'm referring to either (although that is my example), it's everything.

I worked very hard to score at last night's game. The girl who used to be in competition with me was on my line when we're usually split up. Anyway, I scored first and instead of applauding myself or being happy, all I could think was, "Ok, that's done. Time to focus on another one." It's like I'm nevver good enough.