I have 2 doctors and 2 therapists telling me I should go to the hospital. I have been in a severe depression since a couple of days getting out of the hospital the last time. My T says I left the hospital too soon. My pdoc says he is going to give the meds two more weeks but would not elaborate as to what he will do after that.

I feel like the hospital is just a waste of time. I have been in 5 times in the last 20 months and nothing is ever accomplished. They change meds but then a few weeks later I am right back in the same place I was before the hospital. I have tried ECT twice and all that did was screwed up my memory.

This last time in the hospital I told the doctors that the meds would not last but they were confident that this time they would even though all the ones from the last three years haven't. So they sent me home and they stopped working. I am not sure what else can be done. I am just really sick of it all. I am close to giving up and they know that which is why they want me in the hospital.