Last evening I emailed my therapist ( it's allowed) and went on to tell her that while I really like working with her I still do not completely trust her. We've been working together for almost four years. I went on to explain that part of the reason I'm still resistant to certain things ( body work) is due to the lack of trust and I feel that if she would only give me more feedback on her feelings regarding me I'd probably trust in her more than I do. My therapist wants me to FEEL our relationship, to trust in that, to KNOW how she feels based on my experiences with her. I get what she's saying and I do get something from our experiences together however I think it is only natural for me to want to hear " I like working with you Onestep, or I do care about you 1step". I don't need this reassurance all of the time but it would be nice to hear that, don't you think??
We meet on Tuesday after a month off due to my surgery and her going away for training, I hope that she's not over me!