VERY annoyed. Today has not been a good day. First of all, I probably didn't sleep more than 4 hours last night. Woke up sick, threw up a couple times after having coffee. On top of that, my mom had leftover alcohol from last night, and so was already buzzed by the time I even woke up, and was properly drunk by midday. Now she's absolutely sloppy, keeps trying to start arguments with my dad, ranting and raving, on and on. This is after her playing loud music for three hours on the computer, as well as with the oldest, shittiest speakers that make everything sound like distorted fuzz.

On top of that we were supposed to order my birthday gifts on the first (my bday is the 7th), but guess who has been too drunk so far to help me do it. And the past two days have gone by with no mention of it at all from her, which tells me that she isn't even thinking about me or my birthday at all. Then yesterday she tried to claim that she gave me permission to order the gifts on my own. Hell no she did not?? That's why I've been waiting, I thought she WANTED to supervise me AS I ordered the stuff from Amazon to make sure I don't go over the budget. Besides, I don't even know her PIN, how the hell am I supposed to order anything? ***** me I guess, and ***** my birthday... the money will all probably be gone and drank away by the time it can get done.
I'm giving up. I was looking forward to getting my presents, in fact that pretty much was the only thing I had to look forward to this entire month.

I'm sick of every day being like this, just... dreadful. There is always more bad than good, and the good things are only ever these pathetic little occurrences, like I got to see my cat for 5 minutes today before I opened the door and she literally ran out... I guess even she can't stand to be around me anymore.

And there's the sh-tty music again.