My grandmother recently had the terrible experience watching her sister pass away. It was awful, she said, as her sister slowly starved to death, and was moaning in pain until the end. It really tested her and her faith.

Dealing with the death of someone close to you and whom you've always seen as a strong and caring individual is nothing less than shocking and terrifying. If such a strong person can become so weak, so fast, what really is the point in anything anymore? It really shakes you down to your inner most core and puts you and your faith to the ultimate test. However, think of her death as a blessing in that she can be pain free and no longer suffer where she is now.

I don't know if you are particularly faithful or not, but maybe talking to whichever higher power you believe in, if there is one at all, will bring you some piece and comfort as you deal with this loss. I will also keep you in my thoughts and prayers so I hope you can at least find some comfort in that.