Hi, I don't know what to think about these issues I've been having. I'll just dive right in I guess.
First, (this sounds weird) sometimes I feel like my brain is trying to trick me. Almost like I can't trust my own brain. Sometimes I will triple check what time it is if I have somewhere to be because I think that my brain is telling me the wrong time just so I'm late. I've had this happen for a long time. I remember in high school I would always wait for everyone else to leave school because I was so scared that I was imagining the bell ringing... and sometimes I think about something and I'm afraud that I'm actually acting it out but my brain is tricking me into thinking I'm not.
Anyway, secondly... for about 2 or 3 years now I've had this constant "foggy headed" thing going on. I'm not really sure how to describe it but it's like there's a "barrier" between my brain and my physical self, if that makes sense. It's very hard to concentrate and I get overwhelmed very easily. I have a history of chronic depression and every Dr I've talked to blamed it on my depression. I was diagnosed with severe depression at 8 so I've struggled with it for quite a while and it has never presented this way. I've also had MRIs done, extensive blood work, an ultrasound on my heart, and also wore a heart monitor for a week to rule out any other causes for these symptoms and nothing has come of it. Eventually my Dr stopped making suggestions because he decided it was my depression. I've since been on multiple mediations and started counseling and nothing has made a difference.
I need advice on what to do now and what it might be, if anyone recognizes any symptoms. I owe tons in medical bills that show nothing and I can't afford to continue random testing. I don't know if I should just give up and learn to live with it or if there's hope.