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Nov 04, 2016 at 03:33 AM
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Originally Posted by Lonely Warrior
Sorry to be negative, but I hate being a "dude". I hate it because as a man people expect me to be a man; strong, decisive, confident, works his way through difficulties and failures ... etc. I'm none of that. I'm very weak, mentally.
I'm a failure with women where most guys get excited to be a guy. I like women, but I hate myself near them. I've never approached (and thus loved or touched) one.
Would I feel the same if I were a woman? Probably. But the expectations are high for men, and the sympathy for them is very low. I don't ask for sympathy, I just want to live my life as a normal human being through the gender that I'm. I want to be reasonably confident, active, loving, be loved, compassionate, sociable, ... etc. I want to feel I'm living.
Sorry again for my negative post.
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Hey there,
I understand EXACTLY how you feel. Actually, you described me more than you described yourself.
I guess that, when I wrote this post, I was feeling optimistic, so I wrote what I wrote. But, in honesty, I feel exactly how you do.
And, it is unfair.
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I turn to the crowd as they're watching
They're sitting all together in the dark in the warm
I wanted to be in there among them
I see how their eyes are gathered into one
And then she turns to me with her hand extended
Her palm is split with a flower with a flame
- Suzanne Vega (1987)
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