I have bipolar II, PTSD, and major anxiety. I have been taking buspirone for about 5 months now, abilify for 2 months. I feel like a zombie. I don’t have the passion inside me anymore that I used to have and it’s been making me depressed. I don’t wanna take the meds anymore other than the fact the people around me have seen improvement in my mood swings. I’m less self-destructive, I’m not irritable, I can even get out of bed, but I feel like the fire inside me is burning out. The best way I can describe it is: I’m neither on top of the world or in the depths of hell anymore, I’m in purgatory and I can’t get out. I haven’t stopped taking my medication. Everyone seems to like this me more, but I don’t. I don’t like this dull version of me. I didn’t like the hypomanic version either or the depressed one. I guess I’m just having an identity crisis. I just need to know if I’m alone or not, has anyone else experienced this ? Any words of advice, encouragement, or stories would help tremendously. Thank you