You're not alone. I also feel that the old me is gone, and someone new has been created due to the meds. I have less drive for most things in life, and I really don't care about much.

Like you, the people in my life seem to prefer this version of me. I don't. It's not that I hate it so much as I'm apathetic about it.

Sorry to hear you're struggling, just know you're not alone.