I can certainly identify with the feeling of "Who am I? What am I?" And I have been through periods of unremitting depression, wanting to die, etc.

Things aren't so bad for me right now. I got through the long, bad times just putting one foot in front of the other. How, I'm not so sure. I tried different things at different times, some worked, some didn't, I did some things I'm not entirely happy with myself about but it was one foot in front of the other, the best I could or . . . what ??

I wonder if there is anything that you want to move forward FOR? Anything at all? Even if it seems impossible or unrealistic or . . .??