I agree that finding that 'sweet spot' is so hard. We need to have enough of the right mediations to prevent hypo/mania and depression and yet to keep our personalities and zest for life. I have yet to find it and admit to a certain amount of apathy. In some ways I like myself more (less irritable and no mood swings), but in others I very much like myself less (next to no passion, no longer interested in what I once was, such as writing and translation and interpreting and reading)... I'm on two AP's Abilify and Seroquel, I'm trying to get off of Seroquel because of the sedation. I don't know if Abiify is negatively affecting me because I've never taken it without Seroquel, amongst other medications, but I don't think I've had side effects from Abilify from what I can tell, but not sure.

When I told a pdoc about anhedonia (which I think is what we're describing) he said we can 'deal with that later.' I can't speak for everyone, but I do wish pdocs took more seriously this aspect of taking medications and how important it is for us, as patients, to not feel this way.

I would talk to your pdoc about changing around medications to try and find that 'sweet spot' (it may take more than one change/try) to prevent what needs to be prevented while still preventing apathy as well and allowing the 'fire in you' to burn and not burn out.