Hello Olivija: I'm sorry you find yourself to be in such a difficult situation.
As hvert mentioned, it may be worth the time & expense to consult an attorney with regard to your legal obligations & options. I'm afraid that's in all likelihood about all any of us here on PC could say about that.
Beyond that, I hate to be obvious, but perhaps the best thing to do is to seek the services of a counselor or mental health therapist who can work with you, over time, & help you to come to some conclusions with regard to what you really want out of life & how you can get from where you are now to where you want to be.
What strikes me about your post is that you really don't know what you want.
You mentioned that you "learned" 7 languages... but you don't know any of them really... just pieces. And now you're stuck in a job you dislike, in a country you don't like, & you're in a precarious financial situation.
This is not a matter of changing your thinking, or figuring how to like a job you really don't like... living in a country you dislike... away from friends & family. You can't magically transform yourself into someone you're not. What is needed here, in my opinion, is for you figure out what you really want in life, develop a concrete understanding of what your current situation is (perhaps by consulting with an attorney), & then coming up with a plan to get from where you are now to where you want to be. Otherwise you're just adrift, taking the blows as they come, & waiting for the next shoe to drop, so to speak.
I'm sorry if that sounds harsh. I don't mean to be. But it is my perspective with regard to your situation as I understand it.
That said... I see this is your first post here on PC. So... welcome to PsychCentral… from the Skeezyks!
I hope you find the time you spend here to be of benefit.
PsychCentral is a great place to get information as well as support for mental health issues. There are many knowledgeable & caring members here. The more you post, & reply to other members’ posts, the more a part of the community you will become.
Plus there are social groups you can join & chat rooms where you’ll be able to connect with other PC members in real time (once your first 5 posts have been reviewed & approved.) Lots of great stuff! So please keep posting!
