I have been fighting SSDI since 7-14. @ appeals and I was supposed to go in front of the judge this time. They sent me paperwork out of the blue 3 months or so ago, saying they are going to try and solve it without seeing the judge????? I have a stack of medical documents a foot high nd every doctor says I can not even do the lightest work. No way possible I could work 8 hours or 40 hours a week. I can`t even walk 6 feet to the bathroom, without falling..... I think the lawyer is just stalling so she can get the biggest cut allowed. Even my wifes FMLA papers state that I am unable to work and should be wheelchair bound and have 2 people hear, so I am never left alone. The only way to do that is put me in a home. Now, no one is going to pay for that, that I know of. If I get my SSDI, I wouldn`t really care about the insurance all that much, because of the length of time, they would have to put me on Medicare or whatever it is. I liked my job and did not have a problem working my 84 hours a week but it took it`s toll on my body I guess.

My wife, it is still up in the air. She is going to go in Sunday night and talk to them. In a way, I don`t blame her. Her workplace has become a very hostile work environment. She would have no problem getting unemployment. They just had a meeting a few days back and they told them, for the 2nd year in a row, there will be no raises, they make way to much as it is. So, that means the stockholders are raising hell because they think their dividends should be higher. That's what I figure. She is going to look for another job and hopefully she still has hers there. If not, I have a 20 day supply of insulin and my pancreas meds after that, I guess I just sit back and wait. I highly doubt that we will qualify for any kind of assistance because Ohio really sucks with their programs. There are 3 of us here but only my wife and I count because our boy is 22. So they would base everything on 2 people and you are expected to sell anything of value, have no money in savings or 401k`s, etc. This is what I have been told. How true it is, I do not know. I just know I am not physically able to be at Jobs and Family Services for hours. I can`t do it. But all that doesn`t matter.

I try to do those survey things on line every few days, when I am..... not drugged up on my pain meds. I guess that is one way to put it. I might make 50 cents every few days???? I think I have a big whopping 20 bucks saved up. That took months. I was hoping to pay one of my doctors with it but I am sure he would much rather have the full 900 and some I owe him. Already asked them about financing or something like that and got a big NO!! So I know where I stand there but I have to see him.

I`m done, all this has me even more depressed now.