If people knew just how violent and twisted my thoughts get, would they still associate with me? Would they still see someone who cares, regardless of the thoughts that enter my mind many times in a single day?
Would people run the other direction? Would I be locked up? Would they be scared?

I wonder these things a lot, lately. I don't think people are safe near me anymore. One dissociative episode brought on by a flashback and I'm afraid I'll "wake up" with blood on my hands.

It wouldn't be the first time. And those memories scare me to death.