Thank you for your replies. The only contact outside of sessions is about scheduling but at least I've told her there's stuff I haven't told her and maybe I should start so I'm hoping she's gonna remember and help to start the conversation as that's what I need as I can't find a way of just saying it. Before the meeting I'm gonna put the note in my pocket as hopefully then I'll give it to her. She's been good at the other stuff I've told her so hopefully she will be the same for this. I just don't like the way she sits staring at me and I don't want to cry in front of her and her just sitting there will just be another reminder from the past when no one was there