If I ever say something that involves despising or underestimating myself.
I'm not aware of the great amount of times I do it.
I rarely do it with anyone, only with me.
I feel like if I was apologising for my existence.
Only lately, I was being aware of this terrible attitude. My guy was the first who pointed it to me because he perceived that even my voice pitch sounds submissive.
I'm pretty fed up with this attitude. There's a middle point between being an arrogant person and having such an inconsideration towards oneself.

I know that I'm not gonna change it in a wink. It's like my way to breath. I'm thinking of what causes this way now. Meanwhile, I won't put into words these self-destructing thoughts that I see now how unfair are.

Apart from punching my face, do you have any thought about why a person is so negative towards himself.