I graduated from therapy today ,as some of you have expressed it to me~lol. I have been thinking alot about this day. I knew it would be hard in some ways ,but liberating in others. Its hard because I know I have lost that week to week, month to month support from my T.OHH and he is such a great guy too! I couldnt have been more lucky to have had such a great Guy for my T. I do know that I do have him there should I ever need anything.That is reassuring to me.He said he is only a phone call away.

SOooooooooooo, here I am in the world again , on my own , to do my thing, and live my life and hopefully to do it right. Using everything I have learned these past 20 months to the best of my ability. What have I learned and gained from this? First of all , I have gained more of a sense of trust and security and love within myself. That was a biggie for me. I got the crap out about my sexual abuse, realizing it wasnt my fault that it happened and I did nothing to deserve it. I wasnt bad, I didnt do anything wrong. I was just an innocent young girl who wasunfortunately there and available to my abuser. I have also learned that I have the ability to handle situations in my life better. I dont have to put up with people if I choose not to, should they put me down or disrespect me in anyway. I CAN and WILL walk away. Before , I just sat there and took it as it came. NEVER again!I have learned that its ok to put myself first. I dont have to please everyone else first, be it selfish or not.Sometimes we need to do this.I have been able to do nurturing things for myself , like many of you know I take my nightly bath lol with my lavender and a candle lit to relax me and to reflect on my day and the day to come. I really have come to cherish those times. I am finding I am willing to try anything once .That is one thing I have never felt I could do before , so my courage is getting back on track now!! YEAH!! I have even thought about flying now. I was always adament about not doing that at all!!! I have become more assertive and this is a real blessing to me. I am not as afraid to ask questions, cause I always was told my questions were stupid or invalid. Never again, will I feel like Anything I think or do is not a benefit to my life to enrich it or something I can grow from.

I want all of you to know that I will be of any help and support I can be to you. I may not always know the answers, but I am sure willing to listen and care. And I am deeply grateful to all of you for your love , kindness and support here.

Hugz~
Still here and learning &
Tryin2bme~