Full out depressed, can't put it in words. I'm only scheduled to work two days this week, but am thinking of cancelling them. I need to get the blood tests for the sleepiness done asap, and need time to crawl if only a little out of this depression. I need to get back onto Seroquel, but I can't go to work like that with already falling asleep at the wheel. I need tests and to recover. Work would be so pissed if I did this, and I wouldn't get paid, but I feel like I need these things -testing and to recover- before I can do anything, be around other human beings. I have a lot of responsibility for others at work -in healthcare, and right now I just can't be with people, do anything. I hate this. I really hate it. There's no clear, good answer, I feel like I'm really between a rock and a hard place.