I usually try to avoid this forum/sub-forum. It's one of the few that can trigger me pretty bad.
Holidays are going to be the same as usual for me, as far as I know. Alcohol fueled Thanksgiving and the same routine for Christmas. Family hostility as per the norm. I don't think anything will be different this year. There is one good thing, though. My little brother was in the hospital through all of the holidays last year and this year he's home.

If I could change anything about the holidays....I wouldn't know where to begin. Give my mom weed so she's not drinking. Give my dad weed so he's not yelling. Do the cooking for my mom so she's not hurting (but I suck at cooking and she's the master of her kitchen). Not have everything out at my dad's house so that I don't have to worry as much about flashbacks. Everyone actually happy instead of pissed and depressed.

In conclusion of that last paragraph: I guess, if I had a magic wand, I'd get rid of hostility and alcoholism.

I don't mean to bring anyone down. Just ignore this post.