She first disowned me when I was 18 and disobeyed her about going out with a friend. I stayed away for 6 months. Then I went to make peace with her and she acted like nothing happened.

If I hadn't gone back, my life would have been completely different.

She disowned me at least 3 more times over the years over stupid stuff. She really just writes me off for good over simple disobedience.

So now I am written off again even after having been a great daughter. She has already blackballed me to the whole family.

I know she has a disorder. I now understand narcissism. But it doesn't make it any less painful.