I got very close to a relapse today, could barely control my anger and paranoia even with 3mg invega and 5mg olanzapine. There was this father & son couple using me as a reference point for their mockery and laughter, i also hear my name being called by my ears. My senses and thinking are firmly rooted but i felt snappy and raged when someone mentioned my name. I strongly believe that my paranoid thoughts are true. I dk what to do now, dont wish to be warded but one day i might just snap who knows.