Tisha--This is much worse than I realized. You are a very strong person not to be more broken down than you seem to be on this forum. Given your history, I now understand how she manages to draw you back in. I wish I could go spit on her right now. I hope that sentiment doesn't make you mad. You have said that you understand she is mentally ill. And she is old. You are going to have to deal with your legitimate anger towards this woman for the rest of your life. I hope she has the decency to apologize to you on her deathbed but because she is mentally ill, I guess you can't count on that.
I hope I am not being to triggering. I am sorry that you are in so much pain.