Hello Alchemist90: I'm sorry but we here on PC cannot diagnose you. I could not say if you might have Asperger's Syndrome. This requires a mental health professional. Perhaps other members, here on PC, may feel able to offer their thoughts.

I noted your comment regarding violence from other school children & hiding all the time. This is so sad. I had this experience many years ago as well. Even now, at my advanced age, I'm certain it still affects me.

I don't know what possibilities there are for you to obtain mental health treatment now or in the future where you live. From what you wrote it sounds like those opportunities may be few. Hopefully being here on PC can be of some comfort & support. Please keep posting.