It's starting to hit me.that tomorrow is my past appointment with me current psychiatrist, I.still don't know how I should feel, sad, angry, happy for.her, which I am. I'm also really nervous about who my new psychiatrist will be, we're assigned psychiatrists where I go for.services, so I have no choice in who I get, but do have a right to change if the new one doesn't work out for any reason. I know I got to let my concerns.be known, but I suck a.verbalizing my concerns.with people, Hell even weighting them is hard too. I'll try my best though to get out what I want to say tomorrow. I just wish I had more.than a weeks welp not even that, like 5 days notice cause I found out Wednesday morning after my case.manager told me that my psychiatrist is.retiring. So I don't know, I don't know what to feel, I guess I'm just really nervous for tomorrow, my appointment is at 1:15pm tomorrow, so I have to wait all this time and ruminate about all of this. I mean I only seen her since January of this.year, but we.meshed, she was.the first psychiatrist I could trust, she took my symptoms seriously, and worked with me through med changes, and for awhile I.seen her every two.week, now it has been six weeks since my last appointment. I just hope my new psychiatrist is nice and takes.me.seriously, and doesn't change my meds around on me since I'm now on a good combo of Geodon and Lamictal. But I don't know, this is all so sudden, I don't like.change, but I got to deal with it, I guess.this is where.my distress tolerance skills will come.into play especially radical acceptance... Well here's to things hopefully going well tomorrow.