I completely relate to trying to be fastidious in my grooming due to neglect as a child. I always fear smelling badly or being unclean. Stained clothing bothers me a great deal. I'm not sure yet how to get over it. I am overweight but I try to dress trendy or at least clean and pressed. My t's have all said that my eating is disordered somehow but I don't fit an existing diagnosis. Over the years I have gotten better about just telling t's what is on my mind. They have heard it all and they tend to be really kind people who are driven to be helpful.

My current t had an abusive childhood which helps me open up to him about my own past. Taking the first step and telling t how uncomfortable you are is a good first step.